BEAUTIFUL IN ALL SEASONS

Today it came to me, a sudden agreeable thought that said, I will show up wholeheartedly for me too. I will believe I am capable of great things. I am choosing to partner with God in taking care of me too by believing everything God said in his word about me and seeking more of his truth and seeing myself the way he does. This came after I thought about my life, how I show up with passion for others and how diligent I have done my work for the past 5 years. I am intentional and it is my duty to take care of others. Whether by being kind to them or by actually helping their situation. Thus, making their situation better. I believe my call here on earth is to show the love and kindness of God which is the reason I do everything with passion, as unto the Lord Colossians 3:23.  When I was a teenager and when I stepped into my early adulthood I would do everything it takes to look after others but me. I was always patient with others. It always has been natural for me to love others int...

I was tucked in my mother's bed the Friday afternoon on the 5th of July thinking to myself how am i getting back to work when my body has been sore before the school holidays and its rather getting worse after a three weeks holidays. I cried and sobbed thinking about the decision am about to make: a decision to resign and rest for the remainder of the year. At the time these were my thoughts. I reached for my phone under the pillow, i started texting my principal Mrs Nel narrating to her what i have been going through and what my decision is moving on. She was understanding and asked that i email the resignation and said a few kind words. On Monday morning the 8th, i emailed my resignation letter. The peace i felt after clicking send... I felt relieved that i can now focus on one stress, that is my health. I teach at a high school, and you can imagine my life and being overstimulated on a daily. I am grateful for every opportunity God granted me to open my heart and pour into teena...

Everyone is on the same treacherous journey of life’s tainted glory.  Our experience are different yet the same. We are in control, we have a plan, we are disappointed, we get hurt, we are loved we feel at home, we are rejected, we feel betrayed. With life and its entanglements we find ourselves moving on without being one with the journey. We move with our mind onto tomorrow. We can’t wait to get there. It’s almost as if today is non existent on our itinerary. Today becomes yesterday and we reminisce over it only on the parts that made our hearts leap. We got what we wanted or deserved, or a great surprise. We felt life is fair because it dealt with us justly, or rather it favoured us. We move past yesterday avoiding a thought about its events; when we got disappointed, when life dealt with us unfairly, when hurtful things has happened. I am learning that the pressure on my chest about yesterday, that makes me avoid thoughts or chats that have passed mask a shameful moment. I am a...

  A difficult time is when you find yourself in the middle of nowhere. Lost , instantly when you were certain you are following the right roadmap and certain about getting ahead. I mean , there’s no way you can get lost when you have direction and a plan. Also, you prayed before embarking on a journey, you keep on praying on the way. You are okay so far, got used to the way even though your body feels weird. You feel different and the journey is certainly getting difficult.  You keep on with a slowed pace. I have been living with rheumatoid arthritis from when I was 13. It robbed me of my teenage years. I remember how I battled in class to pay attention to what the teacher was saying because my sore body demanded my full attention. Nonetheless, I forced myself. Affirming myself simultaneously dealing with death thoughts, a rather complicated experience. I made it because I was determined to leave high school with a matric certificate. I remember sitting outside during break, w...

It’s a Tuesday morning the 4th of June I am simultaneously tying my tekkies and starting a prayer. I am reminding myself I am not going to my hospital visit alone, God is going with me. Before this reminder, I felt a wind of worry touch me, hence a reminder 🔔that I haven’t been showing up at life and to the usual doctors appointments by myself. I have been supported, and today the Lord is supporting me, again. Strange! Because I usually am a big girl and barely overthink these visits, I rather take them as a break from work. I arrive at the hospital. I go for an X-ray for my right hip as instructed by the rheumatologist on my previous visit. I get the results, I head to the rheumatologist clinic/ section at the same hospital. I am called in to see the doctor. I am examined and I answer the questions. The doctor takes the X-ray sheets and heads out for a while. He returns and explains to me while showing me, that my left hip is perfect and my right hip joint is pretty much non existent...

 

Hey there it’s me again (Lol). I am writing this as I go letting honesty drive the piece with hopes it parks it home for me to come back and take it all in, some day when I need to be reminded who I am and what truly speaks and fulfils me when there’s no room for fear or thoughts of failure. I recently posted on threads 🧵  This post, this thought came when I was in my zone thinking about what I have always loved, growing to love and how this moment is as a result of a spark in my heart that I kept on giving my time which has paved way for the current moment. I have been working for 5 years now (2024) and I have been blessed to do what speaks to my core, that is giving my resources for the betterment of the next person. I give my expertise, my skills, my time and experience to evoke a love for learning laying a foundation for tomorrow’s managers and leaders. In simple words I teach. Over the years I have experienced the beauty of serving and the difficulty of doing it were the ones...