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Is Perfect Good?

I have struggled with perfection not becoming my reality. There have been situations where I wished I had the power to make everything align with what I had in mind. By perfect , I mean making things happen exactly as I intended; without error, without failure, without disappointment, and without anything that could be criticised or rejected. I struggled because perfection was not becoming my reality. Things were not always agreeable, they were not always my first option, and they did not always turn out the way I had envisioned. Through this struggle, I have come to realise that I am not in control. If I were truly in control, it would mean that I am moving on my own strength, depending on myself to make everything work, to make every situation perfect, to make every outcome align with my intentions and the picture I have created in my mind. But the struggle continued, and it still continues. I am not in control. As I wrestled with this, I found myself questioning the idea of perfecti...
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An alignment conversation 🥰😌

Sometimes, the best way to discover what you truly love is to look back at your younger self. Before the influence of society, teachings, and expectations shaped your perspective, your younger self knew the raw, honest truth about your passions. Reconnecting with that inner voice can reveal what genuinely sparks joy and purpose inside you beyond all the noise and external opinions. In this blog, I’ll share how who I am passionate about now is deeply connected to that authentic, childlike clarity, in the form of a prayer rooted in assurance and hope for what seemed like a far future then. One thing about this guy, he’s fulfilled every genuine, unselfish request I ever made to God about adult love. When I was 11, I prayed for a life partner, a best friend really, trusting that when the time was right and I was older and ready, I’d find someone special. Now, being with you feels exactly like what I imagined during those prayers, like I’m exactly where I’m meant to be, living out the best ...
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Sunday Echo: All the way before screens

Shut out the noise. Take it back to a time before screens, before TikTok, before Instagram, before a feed that feeds envy rather than life. Live in the present. Feel the wind on your skin, notice the small movements around you, and soak in the colors of the world. Engage with nature, do the things you love, and let time pass gently as you invest in what genuinely satisfies your soul. Seek knowledge about your passions, and believe this moment is the best time because it is the place where your unique gifts can grow. Remember that lack of knowledge can dull a people’s purpose; pursue wisdom, and let that wisdom transform your actions. When you feel pulled toward self-destruction or despair, choose a path of hope, mentorship, and constructive discipline. Spend time in the right way: in prayer, in study, in meaningful relationships, and in activitites that honors God's design for your life.                             ...
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Late Sunday echoes: A conversation within

Silencing voices that make me cringe, and ignoring voices that don’t feel like home. Welcome to my short, yet stretched walk with Criticism this past week. There he was directing me toward the feeling of “less than.” Walking me through thoughts that wound the heart, so painful I can feel my spirit tearing in two directions, but I keep on walking anyway. A few more steps, listening as it is rude to interrupt… I made a mistake at work, or rather I didn’t perform as well as I usually do. Instead of accepting it and moving forward, I sat with the mistake longer than needed. I forgot that the environment isn’t always supportive for creativity and effort, at least for that hour. There he was, Criticism, seeking someone to blame, and it was just the two of us, so the finger pointed at me. For a while I was quiet; I guess my silence was approval of everything he said. Unaware I was agreeing with him. How dare I momentarily forget how I pride myself on diligence, on showing up with passion and ...
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Am not running out of time

Looking back at my life, I realise I’ve always started early. I began Grade 1 at the age of 5, started university at 17, and bought my first property at 23. I enjoyed the fact that people noticed I was the youngest in class, and I worked hard to be among the top 10 students at school. This drive really began when I chose my subjects and followed my commitment to excelling or should I say, slaying in life. In June 2024, I made the brave decision to leave my job because I chose myself and my health over demanding work. My career requires me to constantly pour into others, and most of the time I had to fake being well and energetic, even on days when I was crumbling inside. I remember one day vividly: I had just returned from external moderation, exhausted, with a badly swollen eye from allergies my eye was barely open. Yet, I still went straight into a parents’ meeting at 16:00, showing up as if nothing was wrong, despite the obvious. That’s who I’ve been all my life: pushing through, be...
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This is IT right here 🪄✨

  December last year.  I love her 😍  I was going through hell and back here. Guys, 2024 needs to be erased from the history of years—no ways! But I still tried to do the things that felt true to me, like being creative with my wardrobe. :) Now, I am the happiest. I am as happy as a toddler learning things for the first time. I am as happy as a young adult who’s realizing things her younger self always dreamt of. I last felt this alive before my teens—before my diagnosis with Juvenile Idiopathic Arthritis. I am so very much at peace; feeling strong has become the cornerstone of my inner serenity. If this was the only gift I had to receive from God, I wouldn’t dare ask for anything else. Or think of trading it for anything later down the line. This is IT right here!!! I am sooooo happy—said a girl who suffered joint pain, swelling, stiffness, redness, warmth around the joints, fatigue, fever, rash, loss of appetite, weight loss, limping, decreased range of motion, eye prob...
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I've become She my younger self dreamed of

When I was in high school, I had big dreams that fueled my drive. I put in effort and long hours to position myself to achieve them. Over time, I’ve realized it’s natural to always set new goals — to keep striving, to want more. But in the process, I’ve sometimes forgotten how far I’ve come. I’ve been doing amazing . The hours I’ve put in were not in vain. Here’s a list of the things I once dreamed of, things I actually achieved. These are the moments my younger self would be proud of. And the woman I am today — the one my teenage self dreamt of — she did it My Achieved Milestones I got a bachelor’s pass and made it into university. I received a merit bursary for the first year of my university studies. I was funded by NSFAS from my second year onward. I moved into a single room in third year (oh how I love my space). I was honoured with an invitation to join the Golden Key International Honour Society. I passed my final year with all distinctions. I got a job and...
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