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LOVING MEL

 

I was on campus attending classes, it was a beautiful day, the weather was nicely warm we had just come out of winter. However, my body was going through some serious Rheumatoid Arthritis flares. Man, the pain was extreme! I limped getting to campus when it was time to leave my hip joint was complaining about having no more strength to carry me home. Its better to have the knees swell or any other joint on the body, not to dismiss the fact that its also uncomfortable but the hip joint pain can be agonizing. At that point i thought I would meet my housemates but no one showed up. I normally depend on myself even when its hard but I was seriously looking forward to meeting them to help me get home as I limp. Unfortunately, it didn't happen. 

That morning I had read Psalm 28:7 "The lord is my strength, my heart trusts in him, and he helps me". While I was thinking of how my life sucked I suddenly heard the verse in my heart, then I saw myself back at the house, in my room. The Lord helped me to persist, he carried me.

All I thought about was what I needed to do and how my body sucked for always being in pain. Most days in varsity I had  to have a self-talk before I could get up from the bed or the chair. Navigating felt like a really big task. In everything I did I was really trying and out of it all, I would really get beautiful results. I tried being a student, I tried being a friend, I tried being a sister, a daughter and all but I never saw that I was trying and in so doing that is a win.
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I love this about myself! That I valued what I had to do  irrespective of how I felt. I actually respect myself for this. I am only saying it now, it might be after a long time of not appreciating myself and my efforts but at least finally I do. On that day I learnt to be patient with myself, I was learning self-love, though I wasn't conscious about it.

This Mel is conscious and intentional about appreciating self, and because she has taken it upon her, she is growing and not the back and forth thing she used to do. She is on a journey going forward.

MY friend Sonto like saying "you/I/we need to do better", well, its fair to say I started doing better in this department of self-love.



How do you love yourself? 
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