BEAUTIFUL IN ALL SEASONS

Showing up = one of the responsibilities Hey friend, welcome! You are about to walk with me for a few minutes as i update you about whats been happening in my life. Bought myself a crib, which I've been living in for 7 months NOW!🎉Its been beautiful living alone. I love the maintained cleanliness (leave it there, find it there, don't blame me i lived in a commune before); i also appreciate the peace and the warmth😍😊. You know that sense of belonging? yes you do! Its really been amazing. However, i need to stress this enough:  living alone made "the" adult hood real, especially when it comes to being responsible and facing it all. Its happening in this department of growth, no fantasies. Its hectic you guys, because not everything runs smoothly.The emotions and their fluctuations, i don't remember how many times i said the words "SHOOT ME" as i face a challenge after dealing with one. 😅😭 But, we still show up because its what we do. Truthfully, late...

    Sometimes i don't know what to say to our Heavenly Father, but i just long for his presence. Love comforts, love heals 🤎🤍 ... Time spent in the presence of God is time well spent. I guess that's why when i get into the presence of God i feel better than before. He's such a good friend and a good parent. I am always welcome at home.

Guard : Protect, look after/ be watchful The word of God instructs us "above all else ( most importantly), guard your heart , for everything you do flows from it . Keep your mouth free of perversity ; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes looks straight ahead ; fix your gaze directly before you. Give careful thought to the paths for your feet and  be steady fast in all your ways . Do not turn to the right or left, keep your foot from evil." -Proverbs 4: 23-27 I would say my father loves me so much to actual help me be right and do right. I have clear instructions to refer to and follow. 💜 Personally, i need to be taught and reminded. I need my hand to be held, and to be shown the next step i should take. I DO NOT want to do this life thing alone. And to have God care this much about all my life details and actually meet these needs, its really mind-blowing. It causes me to randomly go down on my knees in the house, irrespective of the roo...

On July 13th i wrote a piece titled "i will give me a flower too when i am not okay". On the piece i explain moments that taught me i cannot be present for everyone while absent for me, simply because we need to be giving what we possess. I am learning that to be a good friend to others you must understand what that means from being that to yourself every time, all the times. Life, seasons and situations are a practical class providing me an opportunity to keep on trying. The class bring different experiences each day, what makes being part of the space beautiful is patience and kindness are the authenticity. Its a love process, mindful or not everything done in love it is done right, not perfect but right.   This morning i was reflecting on the qualities of a good friendship. The first question that came to mind was "are you always there for yourself, all the times"? Presence plays a huge role, especially when there is necessity, when it matters the most. Good frie...

  I was on campus attending classes, it was a beautiful day, the weather was nicely warm we had just come out of winter. However, my body was going through some serious Rheumatoid Arthritis flares. Man, the pain was extreme! I limped getting to campus when it was time to leave my hip joint was complaining about having no more strength to carry me home. Its better to have the knees swell or any other joint on the body, not to dismiss the fact that its also uncomfortable but the hip joint pain can be agonizing. At that point i thought I would meet my housemates but no one showed up. I normally depend on myself even when its hard but I was seriously looking forward to meeting them to help me get home as I limp. Unfortunately, it didn't happen.  That morning I had read Psalm 28:7 "The lord is my strength, my heart trusts in him, and he helps me". While I was thinking of how my life sucked I suddenly heard the verse in my heart, the...

We are not growing unless we experience new. O MY WORD! Life will show you flames, it will overwhelm you to a point of tears. It gets sad along the journey. However, i believe we have a decision to make. Wallowing in sadness and pain shouldn't be what we choose. I do not want to be the reason my light is not shinning no more. As it shines for everyone connected to me, it definitely has to shine brighter in my case. I get to cheer me up first. When it gets tough i sometimes ask myself why i wanted to be an adult. Silly of me! My love for grow makes me want to see continuous changes, i get bored dealing with the same thing for long. Changes get uncomfortable sometimes truth be told, especially when its something new and huge which i wouldn't have chosen, one that makes me feel unequipped. At some point i really thought i was a master to my emotions no matter what comes my way. To be honest, it feels like am learning again the joy of the Lord and what it means in practice, being c...

It's not easy serving self when her needs were always put last.  Why is putting self first such a difficult thing to do for someone like me?  It's okay! I tell myself as I practice self care. You've been doing well, you're learning and it's beautiful. It might be a slow journey but it shouldn't have to rush. It's important to pace self especially in this specific journey.  You're growing and it's beautiful. Take your time baby girl, just remember to do it with kindness.💙