BEAUTIFUL IN ALL SEASONS

Guard : Protect, look after/ be watchful The word of God instructs us "above all else ( most importantly), guard your heart , for everything you do flows from it . Keep your mouth free of perversity ; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes looks straight ahead ; fix your gaze directly before you. Give careful thought to the paths for your feet and  be steady fast in all your ways . Do not turn to the right or left, keep your foot from evil." -Proverbs 4: 23-27 I would say my father loves me so much to actual help me be right and do right. I have clear instructions to refer to and follow. 💜 Personally, i need to be taught and reminded. I need my hand to be held, and to be shown the next step i should take. I DO NOT want to do this life thing alone. And to have God care this much about all my life details and actually meet these needs, its really mind-blowing. It causes me to randomly go down on my knees in the house, irrespective of the roo...

On July 13th i wrote a piece titled "i will give me a flower too when i am not okay". On the piece i explain moments that taught me i cannot be present for everyone while absent for me, simply because we need to be giving what we possess. I am learning that to be a good friend to others you must understand what that means from being that to yourself every time, all the times. Life, seasons and situations are a practical class providing me an opportunity to keep on trying. The class bring different experiences each day, what makes being part of the space beautiful is patience and kindness are the authenticity. Its a love process, mindful or not everything done in love it is done right, not perfect but right.   This morning i was reflecting on the qualities of a good friendship. The first question that came to mind was "are you always there for yourself, all the times"? Presence plays a huge role, especially when there is necessity, when it matters the most. Good frie...

  I was on campus attending classes, it was a beautiful day, the weather was nicely warm we had just come out of winter. However, my body was going through some serious Rheumatoid Arthritis flares. Man, the pain was extreme! I limped getting to campus when it was time to leave my hip joint was complaining about having no more strength to carry me home. Its better to have the knees swell or any other joint on the body, not to dismiss the fact that its also uncomfortable but the hip joint pain can be agonizing. At that point i thought I would meet my housemates but no one showed up. I normally depend on myself even when its hard but I was seriously looking forward to meeting them to help me get home as I limp. Unfortunately, it didn't happen.  That morning I had read Psalm 28:7 "The lord is my strength, my heart trusts in him, and he helps me". While I was thinking of how my life sucked I suddenly heard the verse in my heart, the...

We are not growing unless we experience new. O MY WORD! Life will show you flames, it will overwhelm you to a point of tears. It gets sad along the journey. However, i believe we have a decision to make. Wallowing in sadness and pain shouldn't be what we choose. I do not want to be the reason my light is not shinning no more. As it shines for everyone connected to me, it definitely has to shine brighter in my case. I get to cheer me up first. When it gets tough i sometimes ask myself why i wanted to be an adult. Silly of me! My love for grow makes me want to see continuous changes, i get bored dealing with the same thing for long. Changes get uncomfortable sometimes truth be told, especially when its something new and huge which i wouldn't have chosen, one that makes me feel unequipped. At some point i really thought i was a master to my emotions no matter what comes my way. To be honest, it feels like am learning again the joy of the Lord and what it means in practice, being c...

It's not easy serving self when her needs were always put last.  Why is putting self first such a difficult thing to do for someone like me?  It's okay! I tell myself as I practice self care. You've been doing well, you're learning and it's beautiful. It might be a slow journey but it shouldn't have to rush. It's important to pace self especially in this specific journey.  You're growing and it's beautiful. Take your time baby girl, just remember to do it with kindness.💙

  One day a friend of mine asked me a question, "how would you describe yourself"?  Present, was my answer . Its in my nature to see through people. When my people are hurting I automatically feel the need to make a difference. Some days I try, some days the only thing I can do is to be present. While being there for people has always been a  natural act, it was harder for me to be there for me when I needed it the most. I was really struggling but I was impatient with me, I was hard and bad towards myself. I could be kind to other people but I couldn't do the same for me. Its so sad thinking about how mad I was at myself for struggling, though I never chose it for myself. I found beauty in my struggle, giving people love and kindness at that point, taught me I have love and beauty within me. Since I have, I decided to experience the love and the beauty too.  I am my own best friend today and I have stopped searching. Our response to life won't always be the same a...

They know you because they observe you, but do you connect with yourself beyond awareness of your dislikes, likes, favorites, your emotions and its fluctuations? My question exactly is "do you understand who you are"? At this point we all know we are not in absolute control, perhaps not in control at all is the right phrase. Life seems to have a new definition, we say. But did the definition of life change or we just didn't make the opportunity to know the definition that always existed? Clarity! Change is inevitable, seasons come and go. We set our minds on the exciting vision, unfortunately along the journey we meet disappointments. However, I say this, seasons change but you don't have to.  Yes we can get emotional about it, but I pray no matter what, we (at the core)  naturally respond to life. What am I saying? I say if you are too loving, too nice, too forgiving, no matter, don't change. There are reasons why you care, serving others is one of ...